Tears that have dried
“Wait and listen! Just let me explain!” He holds my hands up to his face by my wrist, not wanting me to run away. I look away from his face not wanting to see him anymore. I should have known he would do this since that day. Tears of pain swell in my eyes; I wanted to run away from here, hoping it’s all just an illusion.
“No! No more! Last time I forgave you but no more! Let me go!” I try to pull my hand away but it’s no use he’s stronger than me. Tears glide down from my eyes to my cheek.
“Just look at me and listen! I know what I did in the past was wrong but I’m not the same person I was before!” He pulls my hands close to face staring right into me.
“You said that last time but where are we right now.” I try to pull my hand away one last time and give up after that. I fall down to my knee, crying and wishing it’s all just a nightmare or an illusion that would end soon. He didn’t let go of my hand but bends down till he was just above the level of my head. Then he lets go of one of my hands and puts his arm on my back. He pulls me closer until my head falls upon his shoulder. After that he lets go of my other hand and puts his arm around my waist. He sits down then pulls me to a hug making me sit on his lap, crying on his shoulder. I didn’t have the strength to fight him anymore. I only have the strength to think but all that’s in my mind is that I want it to end, the pain, the tears, the feeling of having my heart shattering to a million pieces and the feeling of losing something that’s a part of my life.
“I did and I mean it. So please listen to me and then you can decide yourself.” He whispers to it softly to my ears. He massages my back softly trying to calm me down. I cry for a while then I wipe my tears away still not looking at him. I nod and afterwards I lean my head on his shoulder.
“You saw that picture on the internet of me and another woman kissing and doing that. It wasn’t actually me that time I was with you. Remember? I was cuddling with you; I was tired of all the jobs I had to do that day. Including the diva actress that was a huge trouble on the set she can’t get a simple line for 20 times but can simply flirt with another guy on the set.” He sighs with frustration putting his chin on my head. I snicker and a weak smile appears on my face.
“It said that the picture was taken yesterday but it was actually modified so it would look like me. We have cameras around our house; we also have one on the porch so there should be a record on that day for evidence. We can sue the man in court for the embarrassment he cause you.” He looks at me hoping I would look at him back. I didn’t disappoint him this time. I look up at him with my tinted pink face and swollen eyes, followed by a weak smile on my face. Tears still slide along eyes to my cheek. He wipes it away with his thumb and kisses there.
“Come… I will show it to you. You know I got this knowledge by accident from my extremely geeky dad but he is the best dad you could ever have.” He carries me up in a bridal style and stands up, walking to the living room.
“Let me down. I can walk on my own two feet just fine.” I yawn and try to push him off with the strength that I have left.
“No. You should just relax and let me carry you there. You’re not alone you can lean on me remember. Besides you’re too tired and I don’t want you to faint half way.” He pulls me closer and kisses the crown of my head.
“Okay…” I rest my head on his shoulder, closing my eyes and start calming my mind. I yawn and put my hands close to my chest.
I feel warm and protected. I smell oak trees and grass so calming. When I open my eyes, I see him brushing my hair away from my face. His other arm is behind my waist keeping me close to him. I turn my body to face him and scoot closer to him.
“Sorry I didn’t wake you up just now. You just look so peaceful. Anyway I already check the recording and now I am going to show it to you. Okay?” He runs his fingers through my hair putting is chin on my head putting both of his hands around me.
“All right but promise me you will hold me tight and never let go no matter what....” I stop to take breather and without notice a tear fell upon my face once again. Then I continue “because if you lied I don’t know what I’m capable of doing anymore. I have lost so much this past few weeks. I don’t want you to be one of them too.” I hug him closer thinking that one day he would leave me and disappear never coming back.
“I can promise you that I will and you need to promise me, you will stay with me through all this until it’s proven that I didn’t do it.” He cups my chin while he looks into my eyes and kisses my forehead delicately. Afraid I would break into a million pieces. I turn my body to face the LCD television mounted to the wall. His arms are still around me on my waist. He takes one of his hands and starts the video with a remote control. Then he quickly holds me back again and pulls me closer. I watch it and every single second that past he didn’t let go.
After the video finished
It’s quite not sure what type. It isn’t awkward or sad but it’s something. I feel something warm and bright filling me up from the inside. It didn’t take long for me to notice it this time. I turn my body around and hold him as close as I can. Then I look up to him, looking into his eyes. I give him a kiss on the lips, knowing that they are mine and only I can kiss them. I let go of the kiss to see him smile with so much joy just like the time I said yes when he proposed.
“I love you, forever and always. Never forget that, okay. Because in this world there is only one person that’s your soul mate and for me it’s you” He pulls me closer and massages my back. He puts his forehead on mine. As the time past both of us begin to fall a sleep knowing, tomorrow going to be a hard day that we both will go through together no matter what.
The End
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